My barn having burned to the ground, I can now see the moon.
(Chinese, Japanese or Taoist saying/proverb/poem, depending on who is quoting it.)
In a previous life, on a previous blog (Deeper than Cancer...the link... http://sblumsblog.blogspot.com/ ) I focused on the barn burning to the ground. The barn, my physical body, endured diagnosis and treatment of stage four tonsil cancer that had spread to a lymph node. The tumor on the lymph node in my neck had become large enough that my GP, in a routine physical exam, felt it. I, of course, being oblivious to such things, hadn't noticed. Treatment and the early stages of recovery were, shall we say...a bit like a leisurely hike through hell, or at least as close to my vision of hell as anything I have ever had to endure. Through the blog, I searched for deeper things, intermittently giving updates on my physical condition. At times, all I could focus on was how sick I was feeling, i.e. the barn burning... at other times, I was able to dig a little deeper... Now, I want to move on...enough writing about the barn burning...I want to see the moon!
So I am ready for another year's journey whilst gazing at the moon...I shall begin posting mid July 2010, a year after my diagnosis...I will endeavor NOT to discuss anything related to my cancer or my recovery on this blog. (though no promises, should circumstances change!). In the meantime, I need a break to gaze at the moon! From experience, I know I post in a very erratic fashion...bursts of posts followed by empty spaces of days or weeks...I can't let this feel like a burden, or I will just quit. I go into this expecting nothing...no readers, no comments, no followers...and I endeavor to blog primarily for myself and my own interest. Let's go...or should I say, let's see how it goes.
